Give me a minute
While I reflect on my sins
Was I doing it right?
When I shouldn't have been?

Kept my composure
Since I’ve been up on my feet
But I’m a pushover, baby
When my knees get weak

Integrity has blinded me
To the fallacies of courtesy
Now I’m haunted by regrets
That haven’t even happened yet

My reasons to be kind
Were in denial for so long
It took you to remind
I’m just afraid to be wrong
If there’s price to be nice
We’ve all bought it for less
A reason to be kind
Is just a coward at his best

If you’re in need of some patience
Well you can take some of mine
I found the problem with patience
It’s just a waste of time

I avoid any conflict
By surrendering my greed
But I’ve got nothing to show for it
No scars to show me what I want to need

Sedating revelations
And all that they imply
Ridiculous negations
I’m howling
Now know that all of my

My reasons to be kind
Were in denial for so long
It took you to remind
I’m just afraid to be wrong
If there’s price to be nice
We’ve all bought it for less
A reason to be kind
Is just a coward at his best

I don’t fear
My own fears
Of myself
Enough to
Warrant pity
From anybody else

Self aware
Enough to care
Enough without the
Ignorance to dare
Enough to compromise

Something funny about finding an ideal
Meeting your minimum standard
Letting you feel some love
Without empowering delusions of grandeur
Something to manipulate to facilitate
The flaws with esteem and grace
To leverage your losses so you can save face

Apologies flowed with too much ease
In the affluence of humility
Flaunted my kindness with so much cheek
But I’ve turned it so many times that I’m getting dizzy
And the ultimatum is
Looking bleak
For a freak like me


So we’ve reached the result
Now what happens next?
Can I expect a fresh one that’s not my fault
Where my prerogative’s where I get to get the get
And I’ll tear a page from the book you wrote
Tear out life by the god damn throat
And every idiom you idiots quote
I’ll rock the boat and as we drown, I’ll gloat
How I’ll never forget my unpaid debt

You can take my remains in the palms of your hands and polish my shoes with it
And I’m cold to the touch cuz I’m slash burning my soul down inside
And I’ll make lost time like a son of a bitch
My humiliation my motivation
Now I know that all of my

My reasons to be kind
Were in denial for so long
It took you to remind
I’m just afraid to be wrong
If there’s price to be nice
We’ve all bought it for less
A reason to be kind
Is just a coward at his best